I know I said I’d write about reading in January, but once January arrived I could think of no better way to oust that Christmas tree from this page than with a photo of a journal. Everyone loves journals in January.
That one right there is where I’m working on my MFA.
I ordered this journal last June, sitting in that cafe in Cleveland after the River Teeth Nonfiction Conference, after my second almond milk cappuccino. You might remember the post I wrote back then, wondering if I ought to apply for an MFA program in Creative Nonfiction.
It was a fleeting fancy. For one, we have kids who are either: a) in college, b) barely finished with college, c) headed towards college in another five years. It does not seem like a good time to add my own tuition to the mix. But just as much, I thought about what an MFA program would mean: a lot of work, determined by other people. Assigned readings. Papers.
I’m not crazy about the notion of assignments right now. I’m busy working at my homeschooling memoir, and I’m choosing my reading based on that project. (Recent reads: The Art of Memoir, H is for Hawk, What Comes Next and How to Like It.) I like making my own assignments. I’ve been teaching myself to write for years, and it’s been working, slow and steady. Hey, hey, I’m homeschooling my MFA!
Still, I thought about what I’d get from an MFA program, and what I lacked in my own writing life. Mentorship. Fellow writing students. Formal study. I wondered if I could make more of that for myself.
So I ordered this Passion Planner. It’s designed to help you take big plans and break them into small steps. There are pages for monthly goals, and pages for specific weekly plans. And reflection pages for looking back on how you did the previous month, and changes you might want to make in the next. The planner talks to you, asking questions like, What were the three biggest lessons you learned this month? And, Are you happy with how you spent your time? If not, what steps can you take this next month to adjust them?
I decided to use my planner specifically for my homeschooled MFA–I do my other planning elsewhere, mostly on my phone and computer. I cross out the planner’s “personal” and “work” categories, and change those sections to “writing” and “study,” since those are the areas I’d work on in a formal MFA program.
Sometimes I use colored pens to delineate my writing and study goals because: colored pens! It’s satisfying to write down what I’ve done each day and to make plans for the next. I like the weekly section for writing down Good Things That Happened. One week was the fact that my work got shared on Literary Mama’s blog. Another week I scribbled in silly disbelief, “My word count goal is working! I’m writing more!”
The biggest challenge for me, I’m finding, is incorporating enough study into my days. I’m writing a lot, and reading too. But a graduate program would have me analyzing literature and figuring out how it works, so I’m trying to do that more–and the planner is nudging me along. I read craft essays like the ones found here. I re-listen to the River Teeth presentations. I’ve taken essays I admire and color-coded their themes in an attempt to dissect the writer’s magic. (Because this is what crazy people do at 10:30 on a Tuesday night.)
I highlight my own work–maybe in green for glimmers that are working well; in blue for the sections that sound amateur. There are whole seas of blue. Still, I’ve learned that I’m pretty good at writing scenes and detail, and I have a lot to learn about writing reflection. So my current goal is to read masterful writers and study how they write reflection. Which means more fun with colored pens.
What I’ve learned from this is that it’s easy to feel as if you’ve made progress towards goals that are unstated and ephemeral. Writing them down, making them tangible and specific is entirely different. There’s no room for slacking. You either meet the goal or you don’t. But if you don’t, you can always write it down again the next week. (In turquoise! Or fuchsia!)
Do any of you keep a Passion Planner, or something like it? I’d love to hear what you do with yours. I gave one to Chris for Christmas as he’s off on his own new career this January.
Beyond the planner, I’ve also sought out those mentors and fellow writers that were missing from my life. That Creative Nonfiction course was a boon in that regard. My writing has benefitted so much from the graces of my new mentors and writing friends.
I don’t kid myself that my little planner is the equivalent of an actual MFA. But then again, I’m a dyed-in-the-wool homeschooler. I believe in the power of self-education. My own MFA may be more than twenty years in the making, but I’m getting somewhere. (Elizabeth Gilbert has some intriguing thoughts on why writers and other artists should think hard before applying for MFA programs in her book Big Magic. Does she have an MFA? Nope.)
I’ll tell you one thing: my little journal cost a whole lot less than two years of grad school tuition. I can keep those almond milk cappuccinos coming.
I so enjoyed reading this, and I share a lot of your ideas as well. I even wrote about doing the same (hacking an MFA in writing) on my blog a year ago or so, though yours is much more in-depth on the study part. 🙂 http://ssmast.blogspot.ca/2014/11/self-directed-creative-pursuits-or-how.html
Did you like the Carrie Brownstein book? I only listened to SK at their tail-end, but I read it in just two days.
hmm, for some reason my link says Home. It was supposed to say something else. LOL
Fixed it for you!
Oh, hello kindred spirit! I had to laugh when I read your linked blog post. I’m an INTJ too. Let’s have a little group hug, since we’re such oddballs. 🙂 I loved reading your post. It’s encouraging to me to read the words of other mothers who are finding their own way, alongside motherhood.
I haven’t read the Carrie Brownstein book yet. It was a Christmas gift, and next up in the queue. But just looking at the cover makes me happy.
Hope your writing is progressing!
I like this post! It’s not easy to explain one’s process of self-directed learning. You did it well. Your system is working for sure. I hope it works for C too.
No wonder you like it Kristin–it’s right up your alley! Self-directed learning! Having a place to keep it all organized is motivating and fun. Thanks!
You always amaze me! The journal idea and working on your own MFA is perfect– I always admire your natural flair, perseverance and creativity Tricia!
Hi Lisa! It’s always so neat for me to see you here! Thanks for your sweet words, and especially for taking the time to read. Happy new year, old friend!
You are such an inspiration, Patricia!
“Because this is what crazy people do at 10:30 on a Tuesday night.”
Yes, it is, and a great many other “crazy” things!
I am right there with you on this education hacking thing, but I am trying for too many degrees at once and need some clarity and focus. I like this journal you have going.
Thanks for sharing.
Oh, trying for too many degrees at once–I get that too, Dawn! I want so much to dig seriously into photography and to study exposure and such, rather than winging it all the time. But it’s hard to find time for everything, isn’t it? I suppose we could have worse problems than being endlessly curious!
I am for sure a student of the make-your-own-mfa plan. Just not going to happen for me to do a grad school program whether it’s part time, nights, days, full time, etc. So I read tons of craft books and posts and learn as I go. I read like a writer and like a student.
I LOVE the idea of a passion journal!
I love knowing that others are on the same path I am, Nina. That’s why I’m enjoying keeping up with what you’re reading!
If this sort of journal intrigues you, you’d probably love a Passion Planner. I actually hug mine on a regular basis.
I’ve had this post open for about a week on my phone and I keep reading it over and over. Between this and Melissa Wiley’s blog (children’s author, homeschools, watches a truckload of open source lectures from various universities and does a lot of other things for her own education apparently just for fun) … I’m formulating my own plan to unschool a Master’s in writing and a bunch of other artistic pursuits – I’m figuring out how to make quilts right now, among other things. So THANK YOU. This was perfect timing – all of these books have now been added to my reading list. It will take a long time because all of my kids are small … but nothing says I can’t start now, especially when the rest of my day is talking with children under the age of 10.
And a suggestion for your reading list: I recently finished “The Creative Habit” by Twyla Tharp. She’s a Broadway choreographer but her suggestions can certainly be applied to other pursuits besides dance. The description of “Big Magic” on Amazon reminded me of this book.
Haha–we are two of a kind. I always have posts open in tabs on my computer. It’s the sign of a curious mind!
I hope you do pursue that unschooled Master’s degree. Take as long as you like! It’s so great for our kids to watch us making time for our own learning. I’ve been a fan of Melissa Wiley for many years. She’s excellent inspiration!
And I told you we were two of a kind: I loved The Creative Habit too. In fact, my “How We Homeschool” post is all about how that book influenced my perspective on our homeschooling! http://patriciazaballos.com/how-we-homeschool/
Thanks for keeping my post open–and for taking the time to respond to it!